Dear Jane:
>>>It is for the mind of God that we are supposed to be praying for.<<<
Even in my inexplicable stubbornness, stupidity, and greatest rebellion. In my total unwillingness to accept God's answers. In my refusal to heed cautionary powers;;;I expound on the following.
God has given me but "One mind" and that is of a "sound mind". I AM His representative. He has empowered me ,trained me, equipped me, gifted me, to make me responsible, trusted, caring, family oriented, teachable, giftible, free from the yoke of bondage.
I'll be honest with you; whether I am all that He wants me to be, all the time, is the least of my worries. As the ole saying goes. When you are up to your armpits in alligators it's hard to remember your original objective was to drain the swamp. Am I up to my armpits in alligators. No. Not at the moment. So what's my point.!!
When I was a lost sinner Jesus told me I love you just the way you are, enough to die for you and pay the "just" price for your sins. So my humble appologies to all those people I pray for if I don't go through all those oh God, oh Lord, all I want to be is in Your will, all I want is Your mind, all I want is to be in Your presence, and then I'll know what to pray for and then I'll be in God's will, and then God will be pleased. I'm sorry but that is not ME. I wasn't like that before I got saved and I'm still not like that. And HE SAID..he saved me like I was.. well I still am like I WAS. ( IN many respects)(In many I am not ).What's my point again.
Right now. To be perfectly honest with you I would rather know the advance knowledge of the enemies next move against us rather than have some divine revelation that I am in God's will, in my prayer life. When I pray for a terminally ill cancer patient; it never crosses my mind that it may not be God's will to heal this person. Do I feel God will heal every one. Yes I do. Am I kidding? No. I'm not. How about those naysayers that remind you everyone is going to die of something; you run into them at the funeral homes. "Oh brother, she put up a valiant fight but it was just the Lord's will to call her home."
Well my question is who was "she" fighting? It makes me so sick I just want to go out and scream. Call it original sin, call it God's love that doesn't want us living eternally in a corruptible body, call it God's desire to place us in a better place. I'm thinking the whole time. DEVIL. You got this one but I'm going to fight you tooth and nail on the next one. I'll get down in the nitty gritty with you, I'll get down in the foxholes with you, I'll wade in the swamps up to alligators; I'll NAIL YOU for what you just did. I'm praying. God send me back out. I've had enough rest and relaxation. I don't want Honolulu....I want Hallelujah.........In Christ.....gregor |
