Emile, when you aren't obsessed with your religion, you come off as a pretty intelligent person! (sorry, that's the best I could do on short notice)
Well, tomorrow is god's birthday I guess....for many people in the world anyway. I have to tell you, I don't much go for "non-christians" like myself taking part in a meaningless psuedo-religious holiday (i.e. the consumerist binge most associate with this time of year)but I do it to keep the peace!
I spent roughly a half-month's salary on gifts....too much in my mind, but it means so much to my wife. I actually enjoyed it though this year. Usually I have a difficult time spending money on anyone but myself....I'm no different than anyone else, just more honest about it.
The "joy" I feel in giving is tainted with the compulsory nature of it. I *do* do surprising little "thoughtful" things throughout the year, in addition to spending 90% of what I make on the house and surrounding responsibilities that normally go with running a household.
Well, as I was explaining to "E" in a private mail. I do some of my best "work" while the mother-in-law is over. I retire to the basement with a glass of Jack Daniels. This is one such evening. My son's behavior has been absolutely horrible the last week. I really did not feel he deserves to get a blessed thing....and I am saddened by his total selfishness...yep, that's my boy!
I have only to see him through another 9 years or so, if he gets arrested for some unspeakable crime, well, I tried. Sometimes I try harder than I allude to here. It really does break my heart, but I temper the guilt feelings with the fact that maybe there is such a thing as a genetic sociopath.
Well, anyway, happy holiday to you and yours....in that I am sincere! |
