shalom: I look back on 5 years on this thread and 5000 posts not to mention the countless private messages. In my first post and here it is ....
My thanks to my friends on SI whom have made this possible. I love all of you; God is so good to all of us. I am here as your servant, I desire and want to serve you, to humble myself before you and God, and to lift you up just as Christ was lifted up on the cross.
What more fitting a time to embark on a new beginning but holy week. When I think of the many hours and days all of you will spend here in ministry, and in education, and in service to God I tremble at the awesome miracles and deeds that we will all see our Lord accomplish.
God bless everyone and while the harvest is plentiful the workers are few. Pray that God will send in day laborers, temps, part time, full time, 2 nd shift, and graveyard shift workers. In Christ...gregor
I have no answer for you ...neither for myself. I know not why the Lord took my brother in law last fall...nor my father in the manner in which he did..both terrible deaths. I know not why my finances were reduced to rubble nor not why I have only had 3 days off from work in the past 4 years, working 50 to 70- hours per week just to scrape by.
I meant what I said . I am here to be a servant to those that come here. 24 X 7 I am here as your servant , to pray for you and or your requests. I will be lowly of heart for you ...asking God for you what you will ask of ...obedient to my calling. Not puffing up myself...but puffing up Christ. Not even praying for myself but praying for you and others that come here..I do ask prayer for my family occassionally but I do not like to ask for prayer for myself openly here in this public forum. I do err I know and I am sure that I have done so against my better judgement and perfect will.
My son ..a little younger than yours lives alone in DC, my older daughter flies all over the country in a small plane with her husband and my grandchildren, my younger daughter travels with her mother all over the place. Why have we been spared. We sin . WE fail God all the time . I am a sinner beyond my wildest expectations for this stage of my ministry...I fail myself and God daily. I tragically screw up the simplest assignments and have as much will power as a three year old in an icecream shop. Not to mention the sins of my family. My children. Heck my daughter broke my heart and left her husband for another man. My son is in a relationship with a young lady that is going nowhere. My sister hasn't been to church in years and her son is all screwed up both her sons.
But God watches over us ...unlike your son ...will He ever fail to as He did you...I really do not know . It is not up to me.
There is little enjoyment in my life . All I know is hard work. All I do is try to make some other people happy and especially those that I love ..all those here included. Just pay the bills and another day. Sometimes I feel the happiest moment in my life will be the day I die.
But all this gibbering aside..I mean what I said on the first post I posted here. I am here to be a servant to those that come here....a lowly servant . I want no rewards or appreciation or commendations or money or anything for what I do here. I'll basically say or pray anything to God that you ask me to. If God gets ticked at me and wants to kill me ..fine...like I said the happiest day of my life.
If you want me to say something like ..."dammit God ...why did You kill shaloms son...he deserves at least an answer and not the silent treatment You are so "famous" for giving" I will do it. Just give me the go ahead.
As the head of this thread I believe that God should give me great lee way in the manner or style and great lattitude in the ways and times I can approach Him. If I am wrong, then I guess I will be the next dead one.
To all...I do not wish that I should offend anyone ...Moses struck out at God in anger and was prohibited from entering the promise land....big deal...small penalty !! He still got to go there on the mount of transfiguration...and he didn't have to walk up the mountain, just fell out of the sky....IN Christ...gregor |
