AHem. That's quite all right, Cobe. I have at times felt isolated from things; it doesn't matter whether it was intentional or not, it feels icky. LAtely I have felt so alienated from everything on Feelings I finally have unbookmarked it to save myself the discomfort of feeling like a stranger there. It was sad, as I've been there for over three years, but right now it feels better for me.
But beyond this, I am suddenly finding myself in emotionally deep waters. Ammo starts school in one week- he is a junior. He is driving. He is tall and handsome and wonderful- and suddenly a man.
I am staring at a list of things I HAVE to start doing, like it or not, for CW. We take him to school the weekend of the 21st.
He will never be "home" in quite the same way again. Dan is quiet and locked in himself, doing his own grieving. We are each in pain, and not doing well sharing it.
SO I am down, and sad, and tired.
ANd probably won't be much fun for a while- I ask everyone's patience while I deal with this.
Have a wonderful, wonderful trip! You deserve one after this wild summer with houses and contracts. Relax and enjoy the family. ANd we'll look forward to your return. |
