Yah. It's the not ending part. TIME, in the equation. Your logical brain, or ALL of it, tries to get past a moment, using tolerance and patience and strain, and it makes it through that smallest segment of time, and the same monumental problem, requiring the same monumental forces, is presented again. It doesn't stop. It doesn't "take a breather." No breathers.
It wears you out, ever so quickly.
It gets your attention. I don't mean it makes you realize, I mean it gets ALL of your consciousness. Takes the whole thing, wraps in a ball, a tiny ball, of literal agony, and leaves no exterior space with thought going on. It "localizes", to your consciousness.
Focuses it, like nothing else. But without any gain, and without any space left over in which to see a tree or hear a pleasure or love.
We don't realize our minds are generally free.
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I hate to say I've had a lot of that pain, because compared to pain masters, it's a possible, literal, thousandth. Some people never even experience it. I was talking with a 51 year old friend, and she burned herself a year ago, and we discovered it was the first time she'd been "in pain" in her life. There's a difference, primarily in duration. Sometimes, in intensity.
This country needs to get right with people who need meds to live. They have a right to Life.
The difference, in my opinion, is similar to inflicting the death penalty, for life, on someone. |
