Gregor, what a lovely thought. But I have to confess that just 2 weeks ago I was full of bitterness and anger toward God to the
extent that I couldn't remember anything like it since a horrible
accident back in 1981 with a very close friend.
The details don't matter, as I believe much is best left in the sea of forgetfulness once it manages to get tossed there. We have enough
sad details all day long and don't need more. It was only about little animals anyway, and many people don't consider that very important in the scheme of things.
What was astounding is that the first bitterness and anger at God,
specifically Jesus Himself, led to another small tragedy based on the first one.
I remember this week as being one of terrible nothingness and a reminder of what life is like without God.
So I asked to see what the lesson was. Almost out of a vindictive bitterness to get it over and get on to something else.
The lesson was that every bit of all of it had been my fault, only my fault, no one but my fault. And the bitterness lined up another
period in which all lines of communication were down, and in the
course of world events, something even worse happened. And all of it was my fault. God had been showing me the problems coming all along.
So, in the end, there is nothing that will not bring us closer to God.
And never will the circumstance have ever been anywhere near His fault. And almost always that circumstance will only have arrived when we are not in close fellowship with the Holy Spirit, who warns us always of all things that need attention.
That's all I know. And that this is a situation common to all man. |
