I don't believe in eternal anything where humans are concerned- except maybe our atomic parts- and energy- MAYBE they are eternal, maybe not, I just don't know. I'm an agnostic. We don't know much.
Now, just because I don't trust people and don't care about them- in the way that SOME people claim to care about other people- that doesn't mean I don't find the world pleasant and lovely.
I find the WORLD very pleasant. I like sunsets, and fine foods, I love sounds- the wind, birdsong, the ocean. I love my children and my husband. I enjoy all sorts of things.
But I prefer people's IDEAS to people themselves. So if I had a choice between meeting YOU or reading you as a book- I'd definitely choose the book.
There are a few people I trust- but no one do I trust completely. It is not in my nature, because I know I am not completely trustworthy- and since I am one of the finest people I know intimately, I know if I am not completely trustworthy no one is.
As for caring, I care more generally than specifically. But not enough to do anything rash. And since I AM a relativist, it's hard to get very motivated. So on the one had I care, probably in a different way than most people, and on the other hand I feel very detached from the mass of humanity who seem to be a different species because their thinking is so different from my own. It's hard to feel connected to organisms that don't seem to be like you- of course, I, unlike many humans, do not wish to destroy what I do not understand. But I think I have good cause to be wary of humans. |
