George said<<I do not believe in a personal god. Too many nasty things happen. What is happening to Edwarda is Wrong. Is Bad. So, praying to the "being" that brought this situation into being is ridiculous>> George my beloved and wonderful sister will be dying any moment now--she is now in a coma,and in her passionate and writtened and witnessed and signed document,she pleaded that no one dare even give her a feeding tube--and this will be ,of course,respected--i will not burden the thread with depictions of my sister,as this is the thread for the mourning the passing of this good and wonderful person,called Edwarda,but simply saying her name, Jane/Janie,on this thread speaks for what a wonderful and good person my sister be.
Now i must address now the forthright and legitimate statement you have made.
My sister was cut down,without warning,by an aggressive cancer,at the time of her diagnosis,she was in great shape,and feeling terrific,and because by nature she is a fighter,she fought a brave brave fight,withstanding massive chemo treatment,that was itself a living hell.
her initial prognosis was one month,it is now 8 months,and as i say,she will be released from her body any moment now,and i am now this moment praying for her death,as i at the beginning was for her getting well.
But George i must share with your feeling and admit these prayers were and are not directed to G-d,but i am a paradox,as i do believe firmly in a supreme-being,and though i am a universalist regards religions,respecting them all,i firmly do not blame G-d for the existence of this world known as Earth,and all it's pain and random chance horror that occurs.My faith is an amalgam,christian(for the symbol of love)jew(for the cry for justice)and buddhist(for denial of a creator G-d,and other reasons))---people who mistakenly think buddhist are atheist,are mistaken,they simply can not look at this world and say G_d made it and runs it,their G-d is transcendant,and above this world,and is,hopefully where my sister is going.
So why do i pray,from deep in my heart,regards my sister,simply because i love her,it is my expression of this love,and i am sure it is heard by all the spirits that be transcendant G-d worthy and are here on the supreme beings behalf(who for me is neither he nor she,but all)
you say you live an isolated life,so i hope this post gives you some comfort.Peace W.Maxfield Greenwood otherwise,simply known as max(i think this is the first time i signed my actual name,but it seems fitting now,out of respect for Edwarda,who i am just beginning to discover) PaxMax |
