Thanks Shalom, in this case a second or third opinion is not an option. My prostate gland is full of radioactive seeds, it can't be removed, or re-radiated. Radiation does not work overnight, I am to have my PSA tested on 5/29 and the number should be much lower and continue to drop over the next 3 to 5 years (tested every 3 to 6 months). I am very optimistic that my treatment was well chosen and implemented, it is only due to the progression of the disease that I have to put up with the *degree* of side effects that I do. Certainly I *HOPE* this treatment works....to shell out $60,000+ (insured) and put up with this stuff and *NOT* be cured might be a real pisser, don't you think?
One of the reasons I do not like to relate this experience is the "poor baby" factor, I am not very good at accepting a sympathetic response, although it *is* appreciated! I am posting for informational purposes to any who need to know about it, and if I had it to do over again I would probably not have started this thread or ever mentioned my cancer online. It's a "pride" issue, plus I am already alienated pretty much wherever I go, why bring it here as well?. People mean well, but they just treat me differently. I am waiting for someone to come up to me and say "Oh, you still have cancer"? I'll say "yeah, but that's not what's killing me right now".
Did that make sense?????
Thanks for your concern, I do not mean to seem ungrateful if I do.
Hubert |
