I have always believed that by keeping 'Idea's' out of controversy, I will keep it very limited to very few friends. Hence, the reason that I rarely ever posted on any other thread and made this thread very remote in its contents and presence.
I am really sad that you are not going to be with us more often, however I agree that it was shamefully provocative on Friday, the kind of abuse hurled at me is OK, I can easily take it, I have no big ego, but to get my kids involved is pathetically sick, only a group of 'self indulgent psychopaths' can do this. I am not going to leave the fort, I am here and will finish my five years as I promised, it has done wonders to me and I have become a far better person, it has taught me, and I have learnt every day from many who are great friends.
I don't know who are these guys, what is their agenda, neither do I care to know, for me they are unserious, uncouth and unpolite, I will teach them nicety by not acting or degrading myself or my home i.e. this thread.
Live is a difficult porposition, sometime I do ask why do I do all this, do I really need it, I look back at myself, I see that I have learnt the best things in life when I am on cyber space. This gives me a window in how people become 'mad with obsession, it teaches me to control my emotions and teaches me to try to become a bigger man. I have certain dream in relation to my children, Idea's is my training ground, little did I thought that it will entail this kind of abuse, however, I am very positive that this is the best kind of training to learn 'civility', my mother use to tell me in my childhood that you learn manners from 'creeps and uncivilised'.( You will be happy to know that Zain has intern ship in Fidelity Investments, Rayhan got a internship in IBM and Zachary is going to Shell for next four monts from June to Sept, all courtesy Idea thread, and daily reading, they impressed their interviewers, I had no calls to make or strings to push, they are 16, 17 and 18 and what else could I have dreamt in life?)
I see it actually happening, my resolve to stay is now 100 times higher, I will stay, I will speak my mind, come what it may be, I will not moderate, and I will fight this intrusion with my knowledge, my utmost respect and love for fellow human beings. Every morning I look at myself, I learn, every day, this is a classic situation.
In last three months we have been travelling, I communicate my foolish skills to my children through this thread, and they know one thing that to make a decent, honest living, 'your word should be your honor'. I have lived by it, shown the example, and will not be provoked. If I am unable to use this media of communication or I seek others ways my four years of effort to keep this place alive will be lost to posterity, I hope that you will keep visiting me, you being few of the earliest posters, and keep guiding me, as you have all these years.. I assure you of my best effort to continue and hopefully this will pass as others have. If I moderate my thread, my views will become insulated, the more I get abuse the more I think. The poorer they make my reputation, the lesser the pressure to perform,as one of the most abused person who have rarely retaliated, I am not an unhappy person, I am happy that 'animal instinct of man' is still alive and kicking, it is such a lovely experience to see people blinded with hatred for no apparent reason. All this is a real life experience, you were born in a fortunate country, we 'thirld-worlders' have to face an uphill task to survive, I think that abuse and continous abuse horn your survival instinct.
I am grateful to my tormentors, my kids see in me a 'greater man, a man who would not compromise but would not yield either'. I have always won and kept my friendships and will win here too. I am sorry that you had to take that decision. Hate takes a lot more human capital than love, love is inbuilt response that comes without an effort, hence love making is easier than boxing! gg ( sorry for going tangent, I had to put some smile on your face)...
I will be little lonely and unsafe with these people but rest assure you that like mnay are surprised that I continue whenever you visit, you will find if I am around my post and my foolish Idea's around, my streak of independent thinking will not change, if we have million faults and one attribute that one attribute is that I think differently, it is bad or good, I bear the consequences, to see that it matters so much is also very pleasent in one way, if your enemy pays no attention to you, you are man of no consequence, I ma paid attention by my foes, the only unfortunate thing is that my father use to tell me 'that good man is known by his friends and company he keeps and an intelligent man is known by number of critics one attracts, the only thing gone wrong here is that quality of stone thrown at me are 'pieces of cow dung' that makes me feel bad, I am failing my father wish that I coul have attracted better crowds and critics, but may be we are just not good enough we deserve these bunch of lunatics.I wish some concrete stone would destroy my chart based analysis of cautious optimism.. (the term cautious optimism is borrowed from a statement from SAP on US economy).Keep in touch and please stay with us although I respect your decision, I would have un-bookmarked Idea's had it not been for my own selfish reasons.. bi and see you back here, this is your place.. |
