I adopted a persona that was only a part of me. I never said it wasn't me at all- it was a creation by me. And I don't recall ever saying I said much I didn't believe. X was the part I don't share with the world. The critical part. The part that is into hyper-reason. The part that sees through emotion and social niceties and doesn't care about them at all. It isn't me. It's a part of me. It's a persona constructed out of that one very caustic part of me. A cleansing caustic part, imo. Nothing that I said as X was untrue, that I can recall. But I'm not working at it very hard, since I'm busy. And I think I probably believed almost everything X said- but as me, in 3d, I wouldn't say those things. Why? Social convention and empathy. But I got sick of social convention and empathy. Especially with people who didn't seem worthy of the effort of those things. Now, due to a combination of not being here, and realizing social convention and empathy are for me, not for third parties, there's no point to keeping X up. It was a struggle to be honest, anyway. X is probably too precious to share. X was not mean and nasty. You only interpret X that way. To many other people, including me, X was far far far from mean and nasty.
You will never get it. I'm sorry. I can't explain it any better, but it's clear to me there is no point in going on. Just try to accept that your interpretation of X is not valid for me, and probably isn't valid for many other people either. Third party posts about someone else should be pretty easy to stop, I would think. But if they aren't for you I will understand and use the ignore function. They bother me and putting you on ignore would spare me reading them. That is the only reason I mention that. |
