Surely you can make clear that you do take responsibility for having let things go too far with Poet, and failing to attend to signals that Poet was suffering.
If I knew a way to make this clearer, I would . I have tried to say this several times in several ways. Either I have not been heard, or I have been heard but not been believed. I don't know which.
That said, in honesty I believe that the responsibility is not 100% mine. I agree that I bear the largest single portion of it. But all? No.
Surely you can make clear that you are very sorry
I have tried to say this, too, several times in several ways. I have expressed regret multiple times. Again, I'm not sure if it hasn't been heard, or hasn't been believed.
, and have learned some lessons about obstinacy and pride causing
misjudgment.
I'm not sure I've specifically said this, though I have acknowledged errors. As to the obstinacy part, absolutely. As to the pride part, I have to be honest and say that I don't see pride being a factor in this whole situation. Rather, I see insensitivity on my part, which I discussed with E on several occasions over the past year. She said I just didn't "get it," and I agreed then and agree now, I don't "get it" in the same way she did and apparently Poet did and some others may have. And I would be less than honest if I were to claim even now that I "get it" in the full sense that E wanted me to. I understand intellectually what E is saying. But I simply don't understand, on a gut level, how a person can see a viable, legitimate, and serious threat from someone who from 3,000 miles away, who the person has never met but is known only by electronic messages, when one has the simple ability to entirely eliminate any interaction with that person, to cut off every post made by or to that person and effectively not even know that the person exists. No, frankly, I don't "get" that, and, equally frankly, I doubt I ever will. And no, I'm not going to lie about that even if doing so would bring peace. |
