Why are you keeping asking me?
What I think about my posts is irrelevant.
What you choose to think about them is what matters.
In the past I have made posts that I intended to be amusing, but people were anything but amused by them. So for those people, they were not amusing posts, and that's their reality.
So if you choose to read a post as insulting, that's what it is to you, whether or not I intended it to be insulting.
If you choose to read a post as delightful, then it's delightful to you, even if my intent was not that at all.
If you choose to read my post as an apology, then for you that makes it an apology.
Don't be apologetic about your right to decide for yourself how to interpret posts.
And please don't ask me to control your right and power to read and interpret posts as you choose to. That's what you're asking me to. I won't.
As I said to Jewel, I consider that an act of intellectual violence.
As in all writing, the reader's truth is in the reader, not in the author. Surely as a poet you recognize this? You may intend a poem to be a paean of pathos, but a reader may interpret it as drenched in sentimentality. And so for that reader, it is a mawkishly sentimental poem no matter what you intended it to be when you wrote it. Am I not correct about that?
So you have to decide for yourself whether my posts are apologies.
Heck, even if I said something like "I profusely apologize, I prostrate myself in abject regret" you could choose to reject that and call it a snide insult rather than an apology. And then, so it would be for you.
So, whether in your mind it's an apology or not is up to you. You choose.
If you also choose to let me know which you decide, I would be interested in knowing that so I can know whether I should consider our contretemps ongoing or ended. |