IC, It is true, that an adversary cannot be overpowered by threats, or intimidation, but sometimes they get tired enough of it to just go away.
I would go away if I could, but I feel I am being compelled to be here. What other options do I have since it is obvious someone doesn’t want me to find a job, and even if I got a job, I wouldn’t have it for long because I can no longer concentrate for more than a few seconds. My mind feels like the adult ADD commercial, like it’s constantly changing channels.
My only comfort is reading about the symptoms of PTSD, because it makes me believe I have a condition that can be fixed.
The symptoms of PTSD include:
 sleep problems including nightmares and waking early
 flashbacks and replays which you are unable to switch off
 impaired memory, forgetfulness, inability to recall names, facts and dates that are well known to you
 impaired concentration
 impaired learning ability (eg through poor memory and inability to concentrate)
 hypervigilance (feels like but is not paranoia)
 exaggerated startle response
 irritability, sudden intense anger, occasional violent outbursts
 panic attacks
 hypersensitivity, whereby every remark is perceived as critical
 obsessiveness - the experience takes over your life, you can't get it out of your mind
 joint and muscle pains which have no obvious cause
 feelings of nervousness, anxiety
 reactive depression (not endogenous depression)
 excessive levels of shame, embarrassment
 survivor guilt for having survived when others perished
 a feeling of having been given a second chance at life
 undue fear
 low self-esteem and shattered self-confidence
 emotional numbness, anhedonia (inability to feel love or joy)
 feelings of detachment
 avoidance of anything that reminds you of the experience
physical and mental paralysis at any reminder of the experience |
