Shalom, we don't talk like we used to but my deepest sympathies go out to you. I didn't know and this truly saddens me. My loss of having my daughter in law take my privileges away several years ago from seeing my grandchildren placed a hole in my heart that nothing can fill. Yet I know that God permits it so I must accept it as the best thing for some reason.
My sons are only loyal to there wives and they don't even go see there very sick Mother. Although they had the best of everything money could buy and never wanted for anything they have no fidelity or loyalty to family.
I have a poem that I read every day because I am still yearning to see those dear ones whom I love. I am posting it. I hope it gives you a understanding that you are not alone. There are those of us who suffer losses, and still trudge along until we understand more.
"I Feel as Though My Heart Must Stop with Pain"
I feel as though my heart must stop with pain.
I miss you so, the darkness will not pale.
My darling child, come to me again.
I know you cannot come, and still I strain
To put my arms around you through the veil.
I feel as though my heart must stop with pain.
Other lives and loves call me in vain.
I try to turn away from you and fail.
My darling child, come to me again.
You are my unendurable refrain.
Back and back I hurry to impale
My heart on you, to stop my heart with pain.
Yet nothing that I do undoes the plain
Brutal fact which always must prevail.
Ah, my darling, come to me again!
You are both my sunshine and my rain,
My dearest joy, my anguish, and my grail.
I feel as though my heart must stop with pain.
My darling child, come to me again.
Grandfather Jim
I will remember you in prayer, and share your pain with mine.
God suffices.
James |
