><>...Good morning James...><>
I don't know about all that james, but thank you just the same.
The following was told as a true story...I cannot say if it is... but I have come to understand it thoroughly.
It goes like this
A Rabbi was hit by a car and lay almost unconscious outside a Catholic church. The parish priest came running over to the Rabbi knelt and began to administer last rites. He asked the Rabbi while making the sign of the cross over him, "Do you believe in the father , the son and the holy ghost? The Rabbi moaned, "I'm dying and he asks me riddles"
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I, in the mean time have decided, that since I really do not know much concerning the Kingdom of God...or more specifically anything, that I will surround myself with people who also know that they know nothing. My journey from here on to the end will be only to let God be God! I will just watch and listen.
I will judge not. And all I ask from those I meet along the way, is not to be judged. There is just too much...way too much that I do not know, cannot know and cannot answer.
I will be at peace to just admit that I do not and cannot.
I have reconciled that with myself. I am already at peace. My spirit is now truly free to watch and listen. I have been wrong on so many occasions in the past, and I was truly crushed many times. Of course I did not mind owning up to being wrong...that is not what crushed me. What crushed me was knowing that.... I did not know God at all....or... the real workings of his kingdom.
Two years ago when my brother-in-law died at the age of 42 my sister, his wife, while sitting in her family room (just hours after his death) with her 4 young, and now fatherless children, looked me straight in the eyes and asked, "Where is your God now?" To have responded..."He is with you" woyld have been just another slap in the face. So I said nothing. I just held her and cried with her.
For more than a year after that I tried with every ounce of faith to help her heal.....to restore her faith. Nothing worked! How, in the face of such tragedy, do we wipe away the pain....with words like.... God loves you..or God is with you....The answer is simple...we don't. And in the end all we have are questions. Questions that cannot be answered.
And so I have decided to go on knowing that I do not know anything about God or his Kingdom. I will go on about my business each and every day and just let God go on about his.
Have a good day James
Shalom...><> |
