I am actually eager for whatever comes. Whatever it means for me, I trust in Christ's provision and strength. You know, I am not terribly old; but I have lived long enough, have endured enough and have accomplished enough from the pure blessing of God to know He loves me and has taken a particular interest in my well-being, despite what I am in nature. That is comforting.
You know, I have many children - and twins due in March. With each child, I myself, on my knees, have gone before God with the child, offering it to Him do with as He pleases. I tell you I sense God's pleasure in this. He blesses me because He knows that I know that I am just this feather, as helpless as the children I have given Him, floating on whatever wind He chooses to send. For all my arrogance here, I know this about me.
So, God just keeps sending good winds, and I just keep floating to new and exciting heights without effort. That is why I look eagerly toward the future. It is just not this fearful thing.
Bring it on. Hahahaha. |
