gregor,
You have the same struggles as many of us have with questions that just cannot be answered. If we allow our "logic" and "intelligence" to get in the way, we simply will not be able to accept Biblical truth with the "faith" of a child, which IS necessary. That is, even though we have free choice, we still must accept God's way into Heaven, even though it may make no sense.
I have always reasoned it this way:
If I was created by a higher being, then that higher being could obviously destroy me at any time. The higher being did NOT have to create me in the first place, so NO MATTER what the higher being requests of me, I will do it. Sure, I could not do it, but since the higher being already made it clear that that choice would eventually result in eternal hell, why would I choose to not obey. Very tricky here to HAVE the choice, but there is really only ONE good choice. I simplify for illustration, since God did actually love His creation so much that he chose to make the good choice one that involved Him becoming human and suffering horribly. But, the reality remains the same, and until someone can absolutely prove to me there is an alternative to acquiring eternal life, I'll go with the instructions of the creator, no matter how ludicrous or hard to understand or confusing they are. Why would anyone let their "intellect" or "logic" make them give up an eternal destiny? As Job said, "Though He slay me, yet will I trust Him."
I remain,
SOROS |
