I remember her first writings and to the first year and dealing with the deep sorrow that was incapacitating and having to listen to people advise her to move on, get over it, put it behind you, etc, etc, etc. I did a tremendous amount of research and reading to help me and my family through and found that each of us deal or don't deal with dramatic events in our very own way and our own time. As I prayed about her and her situation, God showed me that hers was such a difficult journey, because of Haley's battle and that Cheryl was eternally positive and I'm sure never, ever let the possibility of Haley passing enter into her thought process. That she had to remain strong and positive. While I saw the reality of Haley's situation, I don't think Cheryl would let that negative thought into her mind. So when the end finally came, Cheryl was shocked and stunned, because of her push to get Haley better. There are so many things that I can't imagine, but understand that your children are ingrained in you and who you are, they are your flesh and bone, mind and soul. And the bond that Haley and Cheryl had because of their ordeal put their relationship on a much higher plane.
It is so good to see progress and that's what get you through. One minute, one day, one week at a time.
Time dulls the pain, but the pain never goes away. It can reappear at any moment as something unexpected pops up to bring up the memory. It's really a situation that will drive you to God or away from Him.
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