I am pretty much always nice, especially in person. I have a tendency to sarcastic wit which doesn't come across as wit on the Internet but the voice and facial expressions make it clear when I am sarcastic in real life. Total strangers tell me things like, "you're sweet", or "you have an honest face". I tend to reserve the zingers for people I know will appreciate it.
So, I would say that I have never lost that part of myself, and therefore do not need to find that.
Actually, I am not sure that there is actually anything lost that I must find, but some people keep telling me that I need to do what I want, not what others want, and I have no idea what I want, other than what I actually do.
Apparently the first step to doing what you want is to find yourself. At least so I am told.
I am not positive that the people who tell me to find myself really know what they are talking about.
Or maybe I misunderstand, and they are really telling me, "get lost.";^)
(Right now in Fairfax VA the roads are almost empty, so am going out to shop for Indian groceries to make rasam, a kind of soup. And continue the search for angelica oil, as I am making home-made uncrossing oil. After finding a death's head beetle on my left breast after I got into my bed, and a brown recluse spider in my shower, I think a little uncrossing oil is called for.) |
