I didn't do that. I merely didn't like her, or you, before she died or after. So actually, it was partly the non-hypocritical nature of my personality that made you most angry. Death, for me, doesn't change things. It doesn't diminish my feelings for the people I like, and it doesn't make me like people I don't like any better. You're just angry because I was honest with you about what Edwarda told me. You can believe a lot of things about me- but I've never lied to you. Whether what she said was true, or not- she said it, and it annoyed me to be made complicit in knowledge about you- whether it was true or not. If it happened again, I'd keep it to myself, just because it didn't turn out the way I thought it would. If it were me, I'd want to know if people were telling people who didn't like me personal information, especially if I thought they were my confidantes, since I like to know who to trust- but you didn't react the way I would. I never told anyone what she said- whether it was true or not- not even Rambi- and I certainly never posted it on SI or anywhere else. However, at this point, I don't expect you to understand, I don't expect to change your mind, and it no longer matters to me. It is what it is.
Maybe JF can give you some anger advice too. I think it might benefit you- and he's very liberal with the psychological advice lately- though it might be merely a personal attack. |
