So, after over a year working 12 hour days, being at site working 84 hour weeks, some guy who was assigned as my supervisor 2 months ago, has given me a performance review that is the worst I have had in my professional 24 year career. I am doing my level best to refrain from sending the e-mail I have written. God, grant me the strength to go to bed and not hit send.
I am not a drama queen, I am trying to shake this off. However, a few of the ratings he gave me are in the range of "fire this person immediately."
This is the same person who a few months ago pulled me aside for a chat and stated "you are the hardest person on the project to work with." During my "review" he brought up things that were personal items that he felt were between he and I. They are not performace related. He is mad I did not return a few e-mails and a few calls. He brought this up. He was mad that I did not respond to requests for electrical input, when the entire time I was providing input to the person in upper mgmt who requested the info. At the time, he was a co-worker, not a supervisor. I eventually replied on a timetable that I set up per my project related priorities. That was not good enough explanation.
I am trying to decide if I can simply pack up and go home. It would wound the company greatly as they do need my help over the next few months in order to finish our goals and be paid a multi-million dollar grant. The critical part of that occurring is based on my design and me being here to ensure it works.
If the person they put over me as a supervisor thinks nothing more of me than the results review indicates, I am not staying with this company, so why should I stay through the Holidays?
I am mad, not hurt. His review is a personal assault, not a review of what I did for this project. I will be telling him that I am not reviewing nor signing this review. In addition, I will be taking it up with upper mgmt and human resources. I was on this same project last year and the supervisor gave me a very high review, as has every other supervisor I have had in the other 15 years I have been with this company.
I am really trying not to send an e-mail that needs sent. I need to count to 10, have a few shots of Wild Turkey and look at it tomorrow. |
