Yes, MSB, it's very good that you managed not to post for two days. I hope SJ is really enjoying your full attention. It's really hard when one person in a relationship is mentally and emotionally vacant, either on the computer or thinking about being there, and perhaps acting resentful that they are not, while being physically present at home but pretty inattentive.
I have never thought of you as any kind of water boy!! I have darkly amusing evil thoughts about a few people at SI--no voodoo dolls of them under my computer table or anything because I am not practicing any kind of black magic, although it is tempting--but you are not one of them. What I look for more in people whose posts I pay attention to is evidence of a GOOD HEART mostly, or secondarily provocative intellectual musings, or beautiful writing skills, or great wit, but the most important thing is that the poster is coming from a curious, searching, or open place. I guess what I dislike the most is presumptuousness (a quality I have been guilty of on occassion), or bitterness, or cruelty or bigotry. Again, you fall into none of these negative categories.
I used to be a really nice person, but Freddy and I have apparently practiced our skills of arrogance and condescension on each other until they are very finely honed, and when we obfuscate each other's arguments things can get quite confusingly murky, and apparently I am also a horrible BITCH!!! Anyway, I am going out shopping today for one of those bumper stickers which are proudly displayed in San Francisco, but might get someone in trouble in other parts of the United States, the one that says MY OTHER CAR IS A BROOM!!!!!
Anyway, if you want to know what I really think of you, I suspect you are in conflict inside yourself, and fairly tormented and often sad. I think most people who write a lot of good poetry probably tend to be that way. Your grasp on reality is fairly fragile, in the sense that I think sometimes you perceive slights that are not in any intended. I think you want to be positive, and do good, but I think you have a pretty short fuse, and fire stuff off rather than reflect first. You are very gentlemanly about apologizing when you blow it, which is admirable.
None of these traits and behaviors disqualify you from full memebership here at the old Feelings thread. A lot of different personalities interacting over time, discussing everything under the sun, is what I like about it here.
Incidentally, my email is totally broken, MSB, and I don't know how long it will be until it is fixed. Please bear with me, okay?? |
