By now I truly and deeply understand my mother wisdom, most of her family was sent to Auschwitz, her mother was killed on the way with a riffle but because she did not move fast (at least that what I was told). Few months after she married my dad who was an officer in Romanian army in Cavalry unit, he was sent to Bessarabia to a stone quarry as a slave worker. His back was filled with deep scars, he never wanted to talk about them as a kid when asking, changing the subject. A cousin and Auschwitz survivor, was trying to speak about the gruesome acts witnessed – my mother was shutting hm up. On his wife they experienced, she died of cervical cancer when I was still a youngster.
To date I do not know what happen to most of my family, now I am alone without anyone, no one of the family members that survived wanted children, only my mother.
My mother language is German, as she was from Bucovina NE Romania, once part of Austro-Hungary, I went to German school – I wrote about it already on SI.
My mother steadfastly claimed that a % of primitive vulgar mob does not make a nation and cannot erase a country heritage and culture. Arriving in Israel with 70Kg of belongings my dad and her worked in construction to earn a living, in Yerucham in the Negev desert, it took a while until we somewhat recovered economically. In her youth she was a Zionist, it evaporated.
Therefore, the events now in Israel are shocking and painful, the mob rules, the white-collar criminals roam free, the Judiciary is worthless, as are many other law enforcement entities.
How it came about to this so sad point it is hard to accept and internalize, no one can comprehend this and myself even less, more so because I believed in this country risked my life in covert operation, crossed enemy lines because I needed too. Ok so I received citations from Armor Corps and Signal Corps Command (there are photos on my FB page)
Now I also understand why District Judges made fun of me when bringing up what I did for this country in my defense for steling part of my bought RE property. The photographs in my previous post speak for themselves, and not sure if anyone reading this senses my shame anger and delusion. I wish I was younger my biggest mistake was coming back from NYC and care for my mother.
I had no choice, I was her only relative, no one was willing to cover her healthcare in NYC even that she paid lifelong health care insurance. |
