RE: your knowledge of various medications (clearly off topic to SEXI)
To sum it up, been there, done that, got a closet full of T-shirts.
As well as tricyclics, lithium, etc.
When I posted my "revelation" concerning my "disability", I was undoubtedly in the throes of a "transitional" emotional state. Somehow I thought by making a light-hearted reference to this abnormality in my brain, someone might gain insight to the fact that many of us out here fight a battle on a daily basis with little fanfare, much alienation, and precious little *understanding* (not sympathy) even by the medical community. First thing one finds out is how clueless researchers are about how *specifically* some of these drugs work. There are *theories*, and conclusions based on clinical trials, but basically it's a crap shoot.
I know more about alot of this psychobabble crap than I ever set out to learn. I have been in "support groups" surrounded by what I generally regarded as pathetic, institutionalized guinea pigs. So what does that leave? It leaves one with the realization that you accept the cards you are dealt in a responsible manner. I have a family and many responsibilities...I've rejected numerous invitations to be "institutionalized" in my adult life because to me that constitutes "giving in" and is a luxury I cannot afford.
So, I go along trying to be as normal as anyone else knowing that the insights I gain on my "condition" and the observations I make about the world around me are in a state of constant change and somewhat unique.
For every "dazzling" perception, there are an equal number of days when I despise the world around me and everyone I come in contact with. Days when access to the "innner mechanisms" is shut off and all that is left is a robot that performs ritual tasks with no emotion whatsoever. Days when attempts to contact the "other" person who resides in this body is at the risk of great emotional and even physical harm.
I wouldn't wish this on anyone....but I have a great deal of respect for people who experience it, and somehow make their life an example that is positive.
Risk is an inherent factor in all of this, and is why I ended up doing the individual stock investment thing. For all of the differences in people who pass through here, we do have a common bond of being risk takers....some may decide it is not for them, and that's OK too.
I'm saying all of this because I am not pleased with how this "role" on these message boards has become something that controls me rather than the other way around. In many ways it is a complete waste of time, time better spent at other pursuits. I reached this conclusion on a similar pursuit several years back when I was the system operator for a computer BBS. (anyone remember those?)
So there it is....I'm taking a break from this task of being a "personality" rather than a real person. I wish everyone the best of luck, mostly what needs to happen here is the passage of time. Impatience is the investors worst enemy. Stocks go up, down, then hopefully back up again....what else is there to say about it?
I do not mean to be overly dramatic, but my presence here is just too much, and it will only get worse. I'm fine, and will return if/when I have something substantive to add to the discussions!
Cheers....and GO BRAVES!!! |
