Nancy,
Wise words as usual. I used to think I knew everything, and no one could offer me something that I did not already know. Then one day I asked myself,"If you have all the answers, why isn't it working?"
This was a tough question. And in it, I am finding more answers than I dreamed possible. I learned that it is not courage on my part to believe that I know everything, and to attempt to show others that they do not. True courage is the willingness and honesty to admit to myself that I don't know something, that I feel pain, and that I am not in complete control of everything that happens, but only how I might perceive those happenings.
I used to revel in all my accumulated 'knowledge'. I used to value it as my definition of myself. I now instead find utility, opportunity, and growth in discovering that something which I thought I knew was indeed false, and am now finding my false beliefs to be that which have covered up my true wisdom, and sense of who I really am. And the source of my direction.
You may be wondering how this relates to your post. What I am saying is that you demonstrate that sensitivity, that wisdom, to put yourself in your vulnerability out there, and allow the truth to arrive. Doing this as you have, you will never fail to find God's love and encouragement, regardless of the responses of the people on this board, because you are giving his love and encouragement to yourself, and I know you will receive healing.
I do not know what your answers will be. When they show up, perhaps you will be willing to share them here, perhaps not.
Even being under what I perceive to be an attack, you go on teaching and learning, and putting yourself out there honestly, and without reservation. Thank you for continuing to show me the way that answers should be found for all. It is only my belief, but I believe that this will never fail you.
I believe that Nancy knows her answers, or how to find them, and has all that she needs to get through to the other side of what she sees now as a gulf of pain. I will be smiling when you get to the other side of your current problem, but I am also smiling now, because you know just how to get there, and nothing anyone can say can take it away from you.
Peace,
Darrin |
