Nancy,
I am sorry to hear this news, but heartened that his gradual departure seems relatively peaceful and painless physically, and that he is surrounded by loved ones.
I have never lost a parent, but I did lose my grandfather recently after a prolonged illness, actually a prolonged death.
I was depressed for a long time, and didn't know how to escape. One day I was sitting there, thinking of my cantankerous grandfather, and he spoke to me, saying,"What are you going to do, just sit there feeling sorry for yourself?" This took me by surprise. In fact it scared me a little bit. I'd never been in that place before.
One day my mother mentioned that she speaks to him. I asked her hesitantly if he spoke back to her. She said yes. I have no rational explanation, and one would serve no purpose.
Likely as did I, you will remain numb for a while. You need to recoup your energy. If the rest of your experience is the same as mine, you may well find that you can speak to your father as surely as you can speak to Yeshua. The death of my grandfather did not interrupt our friendship. On the contrary. We speak more often. Death cannot truly take them away from us, only believing that it can will completely make it so.
My prayers to you, Alan, and your father. And on the day when you have grieved long enough, don't be too surprised if your father shows up and sets you straight. : )
Peace,
Darrin
P.S. Thanks for keeping us posted. Don't forget to take care of yourselves. No use in you getting sick too. |
