Well....I'm later than I wanted to be, but this is truly the first spare hour I have had all weekend....other than a few minutes here or a few minutes there. Gee, but it's been hectic.
Anyway, you are waiting for a story. I don't know if you could call this a story or not....but more a series of thoughts. But first I'm going to ask a question...and then get back to it later on.
The question is for everyone to think about. If you had a job...would you consider yourself a success or a failure if you did well at that job? How would others look upon you if you did extremely well at your job? How would they look upon you if you failed? How would you feel about yourself if you did fail and your family went down the tubes? How would you feel about yourself if you were very successful and were able to buy your family extra things?
Remember those questions....I'll get back to them.
Now then....I kind of had a wake-up call here recently...one that I was really grateful to get, because I've been trying to evolve into a stronger, better person.
The Internet has been wonderful in many ways. It can allow a person to become the person that they always wanted to be inside....and it can help mask the pains of dealing with real life.
Have you ever seen a dog that has been yelled at all the time? It can either become very timid...or it can become very aggressive. If timid, it will want affection...but if somebody comes too close..or if it feels as though it will be yelled at again...it will run away.
Think of me as being that timid dog. But you know what? Running away never helps. If that timid dog is to ever conquer it's fears...it must learn to not run. It must learn that it still has value...even if it didn't catch that rabbit. That doesn't mean it has to get aggressive...it just means that it has to learn that it doesn't have to run away.
I ran away from all of you this past summer. And that was a mistake. In being afraid, and running away....I found that I let many of you down and I'm truly sorry. I didn't think anyone would care whether I ran away or not....and I found out recently that not only did some care...but I had hurt them.
Anyway...let me fill you in a little bit. Last Spring was absolutely INCREDIBLE in the stock market. I hadn't done so well in a long time. I was flying high. Man, I was cool. I was so happy that some people dear to me followed me into the stocks I was in....DGIV...at $6 and $7....MTEI at $1.....JAWZ at $1.
Now those people dear to me have really good jobs...and this was
extra money to them...and so they looked upon those shares as an investment. At the time, I didn't have a regular job...and I looked upon those shares as monthly income. Remember my question earlier?
Really think about that for a moment....and realize that in the stock market...different people have different goals.
Anyway....I had made a series of stock price predictions in July...and I stated that I would be back in August to compare them. Well, I had truly meant to be back to compare them. But then every stock I was in began to turn to mush in July....and instead of being back, I got afraid and ran.
To say that DGIV going down in July....and MTEI turning to mud devastated me is an understatement. I was totally devastated, and even more so because I had gotten out. I had gotten out because I had to in order to pay bills....if I had had a regular job, I would've still been in them. MTEI especially devastated me. I still can hardly bear to read the thread, because someone that I care for is still in MTEI....and it's all because of me. That's hard to live with. And it's especially hard when I sold my last shares of MTEI at 40 cents about a week before it got halted.
But....I had to try and still make money...and so I thought that Vetta looked like it was at a real good price...and it was. I thought, if Vetta could just get back to $1....man, I'd be sitting pretty. Money worries would be over for a bit. So...except for 1,000 shares of JAWZ....I put ALL my stock money into Vetta...thinking that when it hit $1...or even 75 cents...I could sell some of the shares and buy back into DGIV, MTEI, (this was before it was halted) and JAWZ.
Well, then Vetta got halted...and it's still halted. In one split second, I went from having enough money to pay the August bills, to being literally penniless...with no money coming in.
After sitting there in shock for a while...I decided that somewhere there was a lesson that I still needed to learn and I'd better find out what it was, because until I did, I'd never be successful.
I had to quit the stock market....but I didn't have to quit you guys...but being on SI was just too painful for me at the time, and so I left. So anyway....I found a job that I really love...and since that one wasn't enough to pay the bills...I found a second job that I really like...and since that one still wasn't enough to pay all the bills, I found a third job too...and I like it too.
Being penniless...even for a short while...forces one to really look inside themselves. Even though I work at 3 jobs right now, I am just so damn grateful that I have had this time. I've learned so much. When Vetta does begin to trade again....I'll be ready for it. Facing the fact of total temporary failure at my love (stocks) and surviving it, has given me the courage to begin to make another much needed change in my life...one that I had been too afraid to make before.
And if Vetta doesn't ever trade again....I'll still be able to begin again as soon as I have $1,000 saved up. I took $1,000 before and turned it into enough to support me for several months and still have about $30,000 left over....and I'll be able to do it again. Just watch. But I think that Vetta will trade again. I really do. But I'm prepared to accept the worst if it doesn't.
But the BEST lesson I have learned is that if one has people who like them, one doesn't need to run when things go wrong. And I've also learned that when one does run...they are doing a wrong to those same people.
Is this long enough? <gggg>
Well, my schedule is so busy that I'm not able to be on here very much....but I will never run away again. I will be here whenever I can. Bless all of you.....and here's hoping for the best for all of you too.
Juanita
P.S. I also learned to never put ALL your money into a risky stock. Except for those 1,000 shares of JAWZ that I still own (worth about $400) right now...I had put EVERYTHING into Vetta. Dumb! Dumb! Dumb! |
