Agree. It's enjira, I think. Ethiopian sponge bread. First I thot dengue....
I have objective things to measure my memory aginst. It's never been passable for much of higher education, because it won't "take"; hold sufficient impressions, even with dedicated attention. But that's OK.
I learned that's not my type, my personality, my functional destiny. When I learned about ADD, boy that explained some whys. Dead bang on that one. It exists, no matter how diagnostically abused.
Hard effort is helping less and less. I can measure it sort of, as I was saying, and the neat thing is it's forced me to realize I will have to open other doors. My abilities, if I have them or latent ones, have narrowed to very niche. Like say the end of an athletic career. Now I need to maybe discover what the best workings of my brain can do. It feels a little late, duh, at 45, but then I realize that "concern" is a big counterproductive immaterial who cares.
It's also embarrassing to have learned so much and not remember. Annoying. But, who cares? That should be my approach. I'm not going to have a new career in which that's important. Can't; won't.
It's like cutting some things off a raft to keep it afloat.
It's new to me to figure this out; I'm a slow learner and haven't been able yet to see it's destinal(?) implications. Very slow, but.....
More than we wanted to know, eh? |
