>>>> I have seriously been thinking about ritalin.
I find that it is very easy to concentrate on the computer, and I think it is because it stimulates the neurons that we ADDers like to have stimulated. Agree?<<<<
I think the rainbow of what snags ADD-ers, rhythmically, is big and varied, probably precisely varied. There is definitely something in SI, the net, and the market in particular that snags me, like wool on a screen. Like an enzymatic key. (I'm not sure the first two would do it at all, alone, for me.)
Very definitely.
Fractal creation on the puter does too. Another visual infinity, varied, changing.
I take biloba. Haven't tried this phentermine, unless under a different name.
Ritalin calms me and slows down my flashing thinking enough to help me think, concentrate, a little better, but all of the drugs I've tried for ADD have limited effect. I was reading about a guy who's researching the sub-varieties within ADD, and lo and behold he identified a sub-group less responsive to ritalin who had been or were asthmatic.
Typical effing shit there.
I've had a herd of bad diseases, and injuries, but ADD and depression were/are the worst, for me personally. When I was in a wheelchair for some time, I remembered thinking, I can do this the rest of my life, but I don't think I can do ADD and depression. Would I trade ADD, alone, for being in a wheelchair? I was ready to make the deal at the time. I remember thinking, "I could sit in this chair and live, if I didn't have this ADD with me. If "you" (god?) take away this ADD, I'll sit in this chair the rest of my life. I'll be able to do that. I can take care of myself that way. The other way, walking around with it, I don't know if I can." I think people would think I was kidding; I'm not. Or being disrespectful; but I was sitting in the chair, and at the time it looked like it could/would be for life.
Depression is the same. Worse, it kills everything it touches. |
