amazonbabe,
i want a child,
i thought you always knew,
a will,
a way,
where is that will,
i have to find it,
or buy,
or sell,
or extort,
the rest,
but it's not that easy,
most important decision,
everyone says don't do it,
family says 'do it,'
what path have they walked,
have they arrived where i am,
have they any idea of your path,
is it all about me,
is it all about you,
a crazy idea,
do i have no clue,
is it something i have thought about,
every day,
is it something i think about
several times a day,
do i see myself as an
outsider,
in my own life,
do i envy families,
more than anything,
do i just love,
healthy older loving couples,
do they really make me smile,
inside,
do i think about
how it could be,
does it matter to anyone,
other than me,
just a dreamer,
am i lost,
can i not see the forest
for the desert,
i really don't know
what to do,
if i could fix it,
make it all better,
i would,
if i could take away your pain,
your worry,
give you safety,
take care of you,
i would,
where is that plumber,
i think you don't want to hear that,
i think you want to be miss stoic,
miss strong,
miss i don't trust anyone,
i don't blame you,
i may be wrong,
i may be in left field again,
i don't know,
i have no clue,
what about you,
south american babe,
what a lover,
what a beauty,
am i an idiot,
thinking the way i do,
am i a sucker,
without a cause,
do i love my life,
life very whole,
or is it hole,
what is missing,
what is most important,
what do i think about,
every day,
several times a day,
if i could run away,
would i,
if i was a man,
would i do that,
what would a man do,
what would a really strong,
man do,
would he fix it,
would he take the pain,
would he lay his heart,
on the line,
everyone says,
don't do it,
they talk about issues,
i have no clue,
they talk about,
custody,
visitation,
and logistics,
they talk in defensive,
ways,
i want to take care of
someone,
really,
i think i do,
in a way,
but i don't want
that person to be
dependent,
i want to be able to
give,
what i am able to give,
and not demand,
what i am not able to give,
amazonbabe,
i love you,
and i don't know what to do,
the time,
the distance,
i am out there,
i am not in the norm,
i'm not like other people,
i have met,
i don't know what the drive is,
i don't quite understand it,
i have always wanted,
one special,
most important person,
in my life,
i don't understand the rest,
did i say
i wanted a child,
was that, not,
the first thing i ever said to you..... |
