John, this is all becoming very interesting. That last post to you--my incessant and unceasing yammering about the bar without beer atmosphere in every single non-demoninational church in the entire country, period, and spreading to every tiny hamlet in every corner of the world--was actually supposed to be to Grant who is looking at a finding a church.
I've been praying earnestly for months that the Lord would impress upon my spirit if He had any place I could actually find anything other than a rather boring routine--compared to wandering around in my own happy little bubble iwth all my fun stuff, that is. I was going to check the Vinyard, even though all sirens blast warnings to me due to my past experiences with the Vineyard groups, period.
I felt very strongly the other day like this and here I will put it out. I felt that I were drowning without the Lord and in a huge sea where I couldn't find Him anywhere, and that without Him I couldn't possibly make it, and I can't exactly reconstruct the feeling, but it was that as a drowning man grabs at a floating straw, I MUST GRAB AT THE BIBLICAL JESUS AND FORSAKE EVERY OTHER THING LEST I LOSE HIM FOREVER. That the REAL Jesus is now a floating straw on the water, so lost in the human big business hypes and mega fortunes now possible from every single possible marketing concept, and ALL starting within the inside of our little church buildings, I must say. That is the power base upon which the mega fortunes are made.
Jim Baker now recovers from a full face lift. His loathesome and vile female companion of days gone by lears at us still, until recently, from every tabloid, her grotesque smile mocking God daily as she attempted to claw her way back to a 50-100 mill income per year for mocking the Lord daily before a world of Christ-ians who were the only people who could stand to look at her. These things--bizarre advents like the Bakers and the Swaggarts amongst us-- were not removed, they remain, return to little powers, and encourage others that within the world of Jesus Christ anything is and will be tolerated by fools.
That's why this Prez is such a desperately important matter. To sustain him in power opens a floodgate that no man will be able to ever shut again, and could lead to the first imprisonments as "hate crimes of speech" against our anti-christ leaaders who now rule as kings born into monarchies once elected by the slimmest of three-way split elections, by only 50 percent of the population old enough to vote anyway. Perhaps our Prez is more put in place by the prince of darkness than we could ever know. We have a man with a life-long history of grotesque sexual addictions which he cannot control when even surrounded by secret police and state troopers standing by him. During office hours, in front of witnesses, and I can only ward off cold chills at where he might be scanning for kicks on his spare moments away from secret police staring at him. It is a sad thing that no one has bothered to ask him what he DOES do when is truly alone with a world of evil at his fingertips. Does he suddenly repent? Perhaps when truly alone, his sexual addictions leave him and he returns to goodness and light, contemplating only our futures with him in the 21st century as he proclaims on a 24 hour basis? This is about as possible as water running uphill.
These matters could hardly be any more serious than a heart attack. Is ANYONE praying about this except me? Anyone? I can't find these people yet.
It seems that already we bow before the anti-christ rather than scream that a man stands before us absolutely naked and repulsive while a stupid and sinful nation has been admiring his most beautiful clothes.
The KING has on no clothes. The KING could actually be leading us all to destruction. None of what is going on around me makes any sense and it ALL goes against ALL scriptures on the matter.
Is this why the Lord carefully warned that at this time, as others in history have been very close and it applied then also many times, that
if this time were not brought to an end (shortened) that there would be no one that could survive the spiritual confusion.
We know the Bible never warns about surviving in the flesh and avoiding death, because obviously that has been par for the course up to an including our own present time. We alone has escaped all of it because this was the only Christ-ian, Christ led country on earth since 1605. It only warns about being separated from Jesus Christ in any way, the real Jesus, the God of our Salvation, our First True Love.
I just don't know how I could be so concerned about all of this if in fact God Himself were really happy with it, and thought everything everyone was doing was actually great and all all He really does want to do is prosper everyone toward that bigger building with the more elaborate musical amplification equiipment.
It is insane. Purely insane, period. That's all I know. The more I talk about it the more convinced I am that the only thing left for me to do is grab onto Jesus, and that by returning daily to the Word of God, and that by staying in the Gospels and refreshing my memory of the life, words and deeds of Jesus Christ.
That's all I know right now. All else leaves me in great wonder looking at it all and trying to understand what is actually going on.
As always, I could be very wrong. But if I am, it certainly is not a sin unto death, of that I can be sure. |
