>>>>>Whatever I came up with, getting number and number (and for some
reason 44 rings a bell and was only a few years off)<<<<<
What a wonderful post! Can I say that? I read it hours and hours ago, but I had to keep re-reading it. (Number could be "numb-er" or it could be "number" like numeral, either works, and both do.)
>>>>>Okay. But don't let go of this one when you go back after the other one.<<<<<
Exactly! That's exactly how I work math problems in my head. I am terrible at math, by the way, are you? I do pictures much better, and if I can make the math into pictures, it works.
>>>>>It gave me my first serious, non-toy goal in life. Like: don't get killed in a car crash.<<<<<
I can almost remember this myself, but I never would have, if I hadn't read this.
>>>>>I discovered you can't be sure about how you're going to die.
There's nothing to hold it still in your head.<<<<<
Eerie. But exactly right. I didn't think about this until I was 12.
>>>>>Smiling and party happy; but smiling their Super Big Smile. The Super Big Year 2000 one. One I haven't seen yet; not the same as their regular happy smiles.<<<<<
I never thought this about the year 2000, but I thought it about other things. That one day, they were going to take me to the place where they explained everything, and I would belong.
And then the rest of it, just teasers? Need to expand, "the Crawford lot," "my little lacewings," the lady's avocado tree, these all need stories, and then the voices, we all have the voices of course, but interesting to hear about yours.
Colin Wilson, in "The Outsider," wrote that the voices don't actually belong to us, they belong to alien vampires from outer space, and I think he said we could get rid of them, but I don't remember if he said how. |
