Hey, Thomas, why the long face???<g> I be fine, it's just another knotch on my belt, another experience.
I suffered through life many years as a confirmed "stoic". I know this look on others....my mother had it down to a science. Best described as "long suffering".
Now, in the face of this cancer, my life, and a recent series of events having to do with my "career", I consider myself a robust zealot in pursuit of a "revived" spirit. I do not mean necessarily in the *spiritual* sense, just a hard look at reality and what constitutes life. It's always a trade-off, when the price is too high you go somewhere else. In my case I do not intend to *ever* have a protracted illness of any type (arrogant eh?)
I basically have thrown away the last 8 years of my life. Now I have no choice but to go the distance and fall back on what is most obvious....namely responsibility. I have a shitload of insurance, medical, life, you name it. Now I have to face the music, now I have to own the words, it's real simple.
*WHEN* (not if) I get over this bullshit, I will be better for it. We have it too easy at times and forget that the notion of sacrifice has real merit.....not just homage to some starry eyed ideal.
Thanks for the kinds words, and thanks for letting me "vent". |
