To: hpeace who wrote (2069 ) 1/13/2000 12:16:00 PM From: O'Hara Read Replies (1) | Respond to of 2110
†...PILGRIM'S PROGRESS...† Stage 9 continued Hope...><> The causes were, 1. I was ignorant that this was the work of God upon me. I never thought that by awakenings for sin, God at first begins the conversion of a sinner. 2. Sin was yet very sweet to my flesh, and I was loth to leave it. 3. I could not tell how to part with mine old companions, their presence and actions were so desirable unto me. 4. The hours in which convictions were upon me, were such troublesome and such heart-affrighting hours, that I could not bear, no not so much as the remembrance of them upon my heart. Chr...><> Then, as it seems, sometimes you got rid of your trouble? Hope...><> Yes, verily, but it would come into my mind again; and then I should be as bad, nay, worse than I was before. Chr...><> Why, what was it that brought your sins to mind again? Hope...><> Many things; as, 1. If I did but meet a good man in the streets; or, 2. If I have heard any read in the Bible or, 3. If mine head did begin to ache; or, 4. If I were told that some of my neighbors were sick; or, 5. If I heard the bell toll for some that were dead; or, 6. If I thought of dying myself; or, 7. If I heard that sudden death happened to others. 8. But especially when I thought of myself, that I must quickly come to judgment. Chr...><> And could you at any time, with ease, get off the guilt of sin, when by any of these ways it came upon you? Hope...><> No, not I; for then they got faster hold of my conscience; and then, if I did but think of going back to sin, (though my mind was turned against it,) it would be double torment to me. Chr...><> And how did you do then? Hope...><> I thought I must endeavor to mend my life; for else, thought I, I am sure to be damned. Chr...><> And did you endeavor to mend? Hope...><> Yes, and fled from, not only my sins, but sinful company too, and betook me to religious duties, as praying, reading, weeping for sin, speaking truth to my neighbors, etc. These things did I, with many others, too much here to relate. Chr...><> And did you think yourself well then? Hope...><> Yes, for a while; but at the last my trouble came tumbling upon me again, and that over the neck of all my reformations. Chr...><> How came that about, since you were now reformed? John Bunyan To be continued