To: Ilaine who wrote (43637 ) 12/18/1999 8:33:00 AM From: Crocodile Read Replies (1) | Respond to of 71178
<Guys like you just love to make things, I can tell that the act of creation is something you get pleasure from, but it's as natural as breathing to you.> Yes, that's entirely true... I enjoy creating things just to see them. Sometimes I'll make something weird on the computer and be sitting here laughing as I'm finishing making it. I can't explain the feeling... perhaps a feeling of "surprise" as I suddenly see how something is turning out. That's the funny thing about creativity... You kind of "know" in your mind how a thing will look when you start making it, but when it actually turns out the way you imagine it, there is a flash of surprise and amusement that occurs very suddenly at some point... the point at which you realize that you "got it right"... It's a very exciting thing... I also wanted to go to art school, but there weren't too many of them around back when I was a teenager. When I see the kind of computer animation techniques that kids are learning at a couple of the colleges that specialize in that sort of thing up here, I feel quite envious. It's one thing to say that I'm not too old to go there to learn all of this stuff, but when you're 18-20 or so, it's a completely different thing... you acquire knowledge in a different way that starts to become part of what you "will be" rather than what you already "are". Also, there is that feeling of working with peers who have an intuitive feel for the same thing that you do and can share in the excitement. After returning to university to complete some degrees a few years ago, I know that as an older student, you will always be "accepted", but you'll never really be "part of the gang" because of the barriers of age, lifestyle, and just "time".... If I have one regret, it's that I grew up about 15 years before the widespread availability of affordable computers with advanced graphics capability... I'm not knocking pen and ink, watercolors, clay, paper, etc... because I love them and they have been the tools of my trade for much of my life, but computer graphics make it possible to create the kinds of things that artists could only dream of at one time... and that just blows me away whenever I start thinking about it... I wonder if any of this makes much sense...(-: