A PERSONAL NOTE OF CLARIFICATION: I have had in the past couple months several people ask me by phone or in person or in PM's why I am self-effacing, self-derogatory, self-demeaning... many have said that I make a valuable post only to undercut its value by some disrespectful comment directed to myself at the end... I want these people to understand something very clearly... I do NOT at any time wish to be regarded as infallible or incapable of wrong conclusions or predictions... so many people have forgotten my most egregious and public errors... I have not
in my graduate school days and in my early professional career (at Digital) several times I would think my shit didnt stink, held my head up too high, was overly impressed with myself, and spoke down to certain people... I all too clearly recall from my Bible Study days "pride goeth before the fall"... I fell many times when proud, in highly visible ways that I havent forgotten
I realize I have made some good calls in my days here on SIBoard... I hear some have profited handsomely from my calls... others find valuable comfort in my overall environmental perspectives... it pleases me to hear of these stories, but I tend to think my contributions are exaggerated
I have studied mathematics, statistics, and computing thru most of my adult life... I had a minor in economics in college... I learned a great deal about technology while at Digital from 1980-1993... during unemployment from 1993-94 I studied the financial markets in earnest, learning from news journals, sharp brokers, and from the School of Hard Knocks... I work very hard at keeping up with currencies, bonds, stocks, while you guys bust your nuts and boobs keeping up with individual stocks and general tech trends... this is all hugely valuable to me... we are a great team, reminding me often of the Star Trek Borgs, the collective Hive thinking as one... the hard knock experiences taught me a great deal of technical analysis... most learning came after large losses, which I dont take lightly
back to main point... I refuse to allow myself a big head... I appreciate your compliments and occasional adulation... but I am just a man, a strange man, with a personality many find colorful and interesting, and some find abrasive and destructive... I have had a hard life to date, complete with a rough troublesome abusive childhood, broken marriage, drug addiction & rehab, failed career at Digital, not enough romance and personal satisfaction, and saddest of all, no family... my humor masks some personal shortcomings to be sure... probably some sadness and disappointments in life... I exercise with dedication in order to give myself some extra years or decades during which my life might straighten out and produce a loved family... also I make sure I am strong as hell in case I meet some boogeymen from my younger years... if I do, I will kill them with my hands and arms... if I find someone being attacked who cannot adequately defend himself or herself, I will put myself at risk and fight for them
I truly love women and children... I am hard to live with despite being friendly and interested in others, because I am so eccentric, intense, inappropriate and unsure of myself... when I see little children with their parents, espeically little girls, I smile while crying deep inside
I feel like such a member of Voltaire's court, but not sitting to his right... I play in His Court, as a jestor, a counselor, a contributing analyst... my main idols remain Voltaire for insight and direction, Ruffian for wireless strategic perceptions... without these two friends, I would not have told Staples to kiss my ass, and BrunHilda of no need to say goodbye
if you really want to be impressed, check the Gorillas & Kings thread... you will find 20-30 extremely intelligent, savvy, gifted people
so, now you know why I undercut myself
I am a JACKASS, an accomplished jackass of serious evolutionary development
but I refuse to be held up to be more than I am, a man
dont bother to tell me to quit the self-effacement
without keeping my ego in check,
.. MY ANALYSIS WOULD SLIDE IN QUALITY
on my Florida tour this late winter, I have had the pleasure of meeting several of you southerners... you have all been more friendly than words can describe, and generous with your time and hospitality... I hope to meet more of you, and tomorrow I will be continuing that effort
to all those who think I am an idiot, an asshole, with little to contribute anywhere, go on about your life and try not to intersect mine... but before that, please be sure to eat a yard of my shit
sincerely
/ Jim Willie |
