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Pastimes : Let's Talk About Our Feelings!!! -- Ignore unavailable to you. Want to Upgrade?

To: CharleyMike who wrote (76437)	3/28/2000 10:30:00 PM
From: epicure	Respond to of 108807

I am sorry- it is too discouraging. I am not perfect- I can't stand just repeating myself over and over again and having people (my perception) completely and, perhaps, willfully, misunderstand me. I try to be honest, and I don't feel there is any reciprocation here- sometimes it's from a lack of self awareness by some of the participants, but mostly it's just a choice (my perception). I am not letting anyone run me off- I am choosing to leave a bad place. I suppose it is possible we are supposed to teach each other (no matter who the other is)- gently like the Mahatma, or with the selflessness of Jesus, or with the dispassionate awareness of the Buddha- but I don't have the Mahatma's gentle nature, and I know myself too well to think that I am very selfless, and I am not at all dispassionate. I am a reasonably good teacher to people who wish to learn. I am a tolerable companion to people with open minds, who have (to quote Jane Austen,) a "liberality of ideas" similar to my own, but I am not happy here. And that's what it comes down to for me. I want to be happy right now. This is too much conflict and too ugly. There I go again being honest. Probably nothing to be gained by it. I am sure we'll meet elsewhere. Or maybe even here at some other time.