To: Chris land who wrote (84653 ) 8/3/2000 12:13:53 AM From: epicure Respond to of 108807 > 42"He saved others," they said, "but he can't save himself! He's the King of Israel! Let him come down now from the cross, and we will believe in him. 43 He trusts in God. Let God rescue him now if he wants him, for he said, `I am the Son of God.'" 44 In the same way the robbers who were crucified with him also heaped insults on him. 45 From the sixth hour until the ninth hour darkness came over all the land. 46 About the ninth hour Jesus cried out in a loud voice, "Eloi, Eloi, lama sabachthani?"--which means, "My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?" < Jesus had more faith than most people, and yet it seems he too knew fear after being tortured and crucified. He didn't meet the end bravely. It appears he was AFRAID his FATHER had forgotten him as he died. But I don't blame him for that, I don't expect that much of people. If they want to whimper and be angry about being tortured to death, that's ok with me. I don't think I can judge that. If people have doubts when they are in pain and facing the end of life as they have know it, I don't think I can judge how much fear they should feel. I can't even be SURE my relatives were afraid, but they looked afraid. And I was certainly afraid for them. Afraid of their pain, afraid of never being able to speak to them again, afraid that I had not taken full advantage of showing them my love. If you knew people who had easy deaths- good for them. The people I knew suffered, and were wracked with pain. My grandmother believed in God quite strongly, my father didn't. I didn't see a lot of difference in their deaths- except my father cried less. Shall I interpret that to mean that Christians are weepy at the end and agnostics are more stoic? I think not. They faced the end, neither of them could know for certain what was ahead, they left their loved ones on this Earth behind and departed their existence as I knew them, for places unknown. A voyage of any kind has a measure of fear, anything can happen, even a weekend trip to the country- the final voyage- well- who knows? When you make it Chris- I hope you meet the God you deserve.