To: Chris land who wrote (32045 ) 11/2/2000 4:46:54 PM From: mark silvers Respond to of 39621 Chris, Since you asked in a very respectable way, I would be very happy to answer your questions.When you stand before the judgement seat of Christ and he asks you why you rejected him all your life what will your reply be? I will say that I spent a great deal of time trying to figure out what the right thing to do is. I will say that I came to my answers with earnestness and the best intentions that I could have. I will say that I tried to come to my conclusions using love as a road map. When he judges you and says you will never be ushered into his presence based upon your own righteousness how will you respond? I will ask why it matters more what name I call him by, than what I actually did and intended to do. I will ask why blind faith is more important than intentional devotion and trying to do the right things.Will you say you didn't know there was a penalty for rejecting him? I DO NOT reject God. I try to live my life in a manner that I think is the best way to pay tribute to him. I try to do this in the way that has the most personal meaning to me. I do not always succeed in living out my intentions, but I try hard to do so.Will you say you thought he would just let bygones be bygones? I am not asking for that. I am asking to be treated as a person who is seeking answers and trying to use the curiosity, the brains, and the intellect, that God has given me. Instead of blind faith, I am trying to come to a personal conclusion that has deep spiritual meaning for me. We are all individuals, God has made us that way. I do not see where one answer can have the same meaning for all of us. What if he calls to your remembrance some of my posts to you over these past three years about how God will not clear the guilty, what will be your answer? I sincerely do not feel that I am guilty of anything. If trying to learn how to love more freely and deeply is a crime, then perhaps I do not belong in a place where that is considered to be a crime. I consider it the greatest testament one can make to themselves, their family, and their God.You want me to preach tolerance to you but this is as far as I can possibly go. I sincerely believe that you were expressing yourself in the most tolerant manner that you can. I truly appreciate that. I really do. Mark