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To: 2MAR$ who wrote (24708)	10/23/2001 4:46:06 AM
From: SirRealist	Read Replies (19) \| Respond to of 208838

This is it. Went through a long period this summer with limited trading due to job demands and for my work, I got transferred, with a cut in pay that leaves me at the edge of insolvency. My puter fried the same day and the week offline occurred just as the mkt took off, as I had predicted. I missed it perfectly. The formerly rock solid computer running Win2000 now freezes several times a day. Can't get DSL anymore and in this area of tech-friendly Portland, OR, I'm told by my previously reliable ISP that I can't connect faster than 28.8 kbps... and find it knocks me offline after surfing to 2-3 pages.... took 3 knock-offs to get here. I'm SOL. I'm burnt, I cannot move financially from day-to-day survival without daytrading, and now I can't connect to do that for more than 5 mins at a time. I can still find great trades (look at the insider buys on UTSI which reports today AH) but can't capitalize on diddlysquat. All this after years of struggling back from illegal visitation denial that tumbled me into depression and homelessness... a recovery time in which I taught myself to use a computer, to design web pages, to daytrade successfully.... followed by another betrayal that erased what I thought was a nice grubstake to rely on that set me back to 0.... and I bounced back again, trading 2 accounts successfully that permitted me to return to Portland to see my children again, but where no-one else is close at all.... this two steps forward, 3 steps back routine has been replaying for a dozen years now and this is the last straw. And now, I'm even getting treatment from a decade of sleep apnea because I finally found a doctor willing to listen and to hear, so I could at last get real rest again. But I can't afford the medical insurance. I am not an island; I once was human. The penguins no longer recognize me. Thank you to those who shared. I can handle poverty but Portland's people are just too distant and the loneliness offline coupled with the declining, tenuous online experience is too solitary with no end in sight. I have no answers or advice except try to find the next person who does not deserve death and offer her or him a reason to live. I am not sure I know how to die but I am positive I no longer know how to live.