To: ubetcha who wrote (83443 ) 3/19/2002 5:23:29 AM From: d:oug Read Replies (2) | Respond to of 117095 (off topic) Loud noises would cause me to hit the ground... ... passed that off as having tripped or stumbled." Yes, this was also me for many many years, or better to say "many many tears" as i felt it cruel that state side civilian life could so easily mimic war sounds, with the one most devastating and robbing me of a great time is the fourth of july and fire works for my extra able eyes to see colors in the sky, but those rockets that return downwards and produce a whistling sound prevent me from going to the show. Actually, now that i'am thinking about this event slowly because of my slow keyboard typing speed i have just realized a way that i can go to this fireworks show and enjoy it simply by taking with me those ear protection that i use when firing a handgun or rifle. Its the colors i enjoy and don't need to hear to see that. Amazing how solutions can be quick and simple if one does something like a distraction or a parallel task while on a focus of a specific problem one can not ever make progress with. I sometimes tell a person to write down what their concern is about an event they have trouble dealing with, and sometimes they will try and write down an image or thought that they were not able to obtain just by straight thinking about the focus item. As for a continuation of this, i'am thankful for the ear protection method to stop the fourth of july sounds so i can now after 30 years of not able to go to the night shows, i now will this year. But them dreams always increase in rate and duration once i take a focus like this about Vietnam, and its amazing how many different variations of the same simple dream i can have over and over, as i run out of ammo, or my bullets onl have 1/10 the powder in them and they bounce off the enemies skin, or the one i fear the most is when i can not find my rifle. So, no private message or more of this talk as its like a giant sheet of fly paper that collects all them images and they stick upon the paper in view all the time as more and more fill up that space in from of my eyes. Imagine, all this talk because Chatters feels an empty space inside himself for not having the combat experience that will deliver to his mind what is needed to be a warrior proved in fact rather than just sure that its in his make-up as a "man." d:oug