To: epsteinbd who wrote (12341 ) 5/15/2002 3:39:42 PM From: Grandk Respond to of 28931 God gives me hope. He gives me a solution to the problem of my self. Eternal life is an awesome perk, but ultimately it is the changing work of the Holy Spirit in me that I desire. I was not the best of folk before I dedicated my life to Christ. Since then the change has been 180 degrees. My whole perspective on life has changed. Now I hunger for growth in every area of my life: spiritually, physically, and mentally. I still have my doubts at times, but that is the opposite as faith. When my faith ebbs away I simply get on my knees and ask for faith and my prayer is answered. As far as having two way love in my life, I believe I owe that fact to God. The funny thing about that is the day I dedicated my life to God is the day I met my wife. I went to a local church event because my family is Christian and it is in my background. I was at the low point in my life. I was consumed by sex,drugs, and alcohol. Not knowing exactly why I was there I found a place in the back where there was a large cross. Kneeling in front of it I said "God, if you exist, show me." That is exactly what He did. There was an initial change in my demeanor. But, it was the everyday change that I really noticed. I had a hunger to know more. I had an intense desire to read God's word. Everyday is now a gift waiting to be revealed. I have no idea what God will place in my path, but I look forward to it. Anyway, back to the place of love in my life. When I dedicated myself to God I was approached by a women who would eventually become my wife. I thought at first that she was a church greeter (someone who's job it is to greet new people). I had no desire to speak with her. My focus was on God. She was persistent. She asked me out on a date. I believe God had that night planned out for me in advance. I could have made the decision to leave; God knows I wanted to. Yet, His compelling overcame my skepticism and I thank Him everyday because of it. Thanks to God's guidance in my life I now have the greatest gift I could have asked for. My wife and my life. What more could one want?