To: Clappy who wrote (21129 ) 1/15/2003 4:16:12 PM From: elpolvo Respond to of 104155 jerry'sneph- sorry to hear it. i'm sure this is not nearly as hard for him as was losing the son. that's number one on the all-time list of personal disasters. my heart and admiration goes out to him for living with that. toni is still kicking and recovering well. it's been almost a year and a half. i'm not familiar with the stages of cancer, but hers was discovered before it had spread beyond the tumor (other than the one bit found in an adjacent lymph node). she has survived against high odds and it still could recur but she's got a lot of life in her. just guessing, but she probably was a stage two????? i didn't find anything she was interested in from the internet. she's worked at the cancer center here for so long that she felt she had all the knowledge she wanted and she had a course of action picked out already - seems to have been a good one too. what's interesting is how it affects the rest of us who know the person with the cancer... you are thrown into a real test of your beliefs about mortality, not only as it relates to the patient/loved one but as it relates to your own life and death. even if you're pretty solid on your acceptance of death and your views/beliefs it still makes you look at scenarios beyond you or your loved ones' deaths and sorta forces you to examine some things that can get neglected out of denial, i.e., not wanting to deal with wills, preparations, etc. don't know if you caught the letterman show with warren zevon last month, but it was as poignant a show as i've ever seen. two friends sitting in front of an audience, not knowing what to say, and still, somehow coming out with just the right words and actions -- it was like watching a lifetime happen on the screen in one short hour. and it turned out that the right thing to do and to say was exactly the same as it is for everyone, everyday -- when you are alive, be alive, be grateful, express yourself and don't hold anything back for another day... as warren put it - "enjoy EVERY SANDWICH." when warren played and sang his 3 numbers during the show - i don't think i've ever listened to a performance with as much concentration - every note and every word was a special treat to hear coming from him, knowing that it may be his last performance. my best to you, your uncle jerry and all his family and friends. treat him like you would anyone everyday... try to make him shoot milk out of his noze. -bozo