To: smolejv@gmx.net who wrote (35005 ) 6/14/2003 2:06:32 AM From: Cogito Ergo Sum Read Replies (1) | Respond to of 74559 Oh yes DJ, I know what you mean both the cigars and your son's multiple attempts. I quit 'just like that' one Sunday coming home from Woodbine (thoroughbreds) on a Sunday afternoon, 1992 (July something else in common ;o) Out of smokes, nice afternoon and couldn't find a convenience store. So just like the quintessential stoic Indian, American native variety ( today is a good day to die) I thought today is a good day to quit and that was it, just like that. In truth though I had quit at least a dozen times before, failed resolutions whatever, just like that. The last time felt different though, guess I was ready. Big difference was before I always 'rewarded myself' after a good run of abstinence with the just one smoke, it'll be OK , you know the story. The last time I just decided I was a weak sniveling slob that couldn't be trusted to have 'just one'. A moment of clarity and self revelation, they are rare LOL... As to lifer and cigars and ,"do-you-feel-the-rush" inhaling ....... OH! YEAH BABY !! do I know LOL.. Man I smoked roll your own Drum, or Players reg and could handle those throat ripping Gauloise, never mind that sissy Marlborough stuff LOL... Well my dad came back from Cuba with a ton of cigars a few years back and contrary to conventional wisdom I sure would have inhaled ;o) A big haul on a cigar watching as it visibly shrank, I imagined and visualized the carcinoma rangers filling every bronchiole with their soothing poison... Oh I wanted one, no two, no three, but I foiled the rangers remembering my weakness and declined... And every now and then I get that little craving... but thankfully it quickly subsides with no more sensation of lungs screaming out in agony, nicotine, nicotine, my life for some nicotine... Yeah you had to be there... took 6 months to learn and 20 years to quit... regards Kastel past member