To: goldworldnet who wrote (204830 ) 3/22/2011 2:47:23 AM From: Naomi 6 Recommendations Read Replies (3) | Respond to of 225578 Oh Josh I am really honored by the recs and the love displayed.. I do not know if I have the wisdom you are seeking. I do remember someone telling me, probably my Mother, that my Grandfather's Mother who lived on a farm in Louisiana took a weapon out behind the barn and shot herself. She did not know the reason why she did this or the circumstances behind it. Do not know of anyone else in the family that ever took their own life. My parents were the best people I have ever known, lived through the depression, never complained about life and had their ups and downs, but worked hard to overcome adversity. And I was very close to my Mom, who never preached to me about life, but told me to lead a clean and honorable life and that life would treat me well. My Mom taught me by example and was very giving in all her ways. My parents were very simple people who had loving hearts. I am proud of the faith they had in me and continue to try to honor their examples. I have known a couple of people who had a child or sibling take their own lives, and I suffered their losses with them and felt blessed it had not happened to me. I know I would never think of taking my own life as I have a firm belief in God and have trusted him several times when life seemed to be ending for me, but didn't happen and I survived. I believe that it is God's decision about when it is time for life to end. I do not have a fear of dying and I consider myself to have had a full life by reaching the age I am. I believe each day of life is a gift, but have to admit I do have some really lazy days doing nothing but lurking and reading news on my computer. Then there are other days I think I am working my buns off to keep things in order the way I like them to be. I win some and lose some, but do believe life is what you make of it and the choices you make do have consequences. Right now I am thinking how much I will dislike myself in the morning for staying up this late and it is late o'clock and the consequences for it as our burglar alarm is not working properly and called for a repair tech who will be here tomorrow afternoon to look at it. Glad I had nothing planned for tomorrow which now is really today.....<gg> Good night all with much love and hugs!