To: dexx who wrote (1 ) 2/16/1998 1:50:00 PM From: Wayne J. Read Replies (2) | Respond to of 139
Hello! Dexx, You have demonstrated many dimensions to your style on various threads and postings! And on a regular basis, I keep finding a new one!---For whatever reason I feel that I have known you for a long time!---Here are a couple of thoughts! I'm not sure how deep? But! Here it goes!!! I sometimes wonder "HOW MUCH IS ENOUGH?"------I imagine that could just about cover anything and everything! EXAMPLE!!! There is a part of me, that I would like to think is a sharing and giving person! ( But! Definitely NO! ANGEL!!). SO! I see these T.V Shows, showing video's of "HUNGRY CHILDREN"--- My initial reaction is to feel a slight tear forming in the corner of my eye, then think to myself that "someday" when and if I'm fortunate enough to make "LOADS" of $$$$$ on the Stock Market, or Wherever??-----I would gladly contribute in helping these children! Then I walk down the street and see young teenagers ( Probably thrown out of their homes) panhandling!-----Then I get a double standard feeling!---Because I have two teenage daughters of my own, my initial feeling is " What are they doing on the street, have they no respect for their parents, blah! blah! blah!!-------------------- ---------Then the other side of the emotion directs me to wonder what I can do to help these children!! I find myself always walking a very fine line, of either wanting to save the entire misery in the world, or on the other side I sometimes just want to go and live on a deserted Island and the rest of the world can take a hike!!! I don't necessarily enjoy having this double standard form of thinking stuck between my two ears!!!----But! I'm not really expecting much to change! I am now almost 50, and am still wondering what I am going to be when I grow up?? Could it be that some people like me just never mature or grow up? I say this because I tend to take things too much to heart, and I'm afraid one day I am just going to blow up, and simply leave this world with my only mark in life left behind will be some water and minerals bunched up in the corner of a room! If someone asked me what would I do differently if I had a chance to start life over again? Easy??? Have more "FUN" and enjoy life!! There is in my opinion! NO SUCH THING AS HAVING TOO MUCH FUN!---Life has a way of making sure that never happens! So! Just go for the fun, and you will know when it's time to do something else! I really don't know how to have a real good laugh ! I yearn to have one of those laughing spells, where you see people rolling around the floor, out of control, etc. ( I recall a few of those experiences years ago, but it has been a very long time!). You are right about loved one's! I to have recently had changes in my family front! What I have learned is you can't turn back the clock's of time! DEXX!!! You made a very impactful point! I wonder what this world would be like , if every time we had a disagreement, verbal fight, etc, with someone--instead we simply gave them a solid "I LIKE YOU HUG?"-----What would things be like today?? In closing! Dexx, you have much to offer, and I have noticed that your high energy level and youth, will ( in my opinion) open many doors in life for you! Best Regards, Wayne J.