To: mark silvers who wrote (16818 ) 6/1/1998 12:28:00 PM From: Jane Hafker Respond to of 39621
Mark, I am offended by the little mouths of satan that rail against my Lord. It's not offended, I would almost rather meet them toe to toe and slug it out, but of course this is utterly forbidden. There are no more poor knights of the temple of Jerusalem, and they wouldn't have taken me anyway. Wrong sex. So, not a matter of offense. I rail here against the railers, and like to be certainly those I am NOT railing against understand that. Not railing against you. Just worried about where you are as you have very powerful humans around you, I'm sure, that seem to have the truth, and will seek to keep you there. Same with me. You just can't believe what happened in my life. One guy arranged for the traveling understudy of the real Dahlai Llama, whatever it is, to come all the way to a place we lived in the Mts. Of course, everybody in CA made their pilgrimages there, but I remember Peter Zimmels bringing me a dalhlie Llama. Not the real thing, but something Peter felt was very very impressive. He brought him up from S.F. where the guy was on some sort of teaching recruiting tour. It was an oriental guy a couple of years younger than me, I think, and dressed in Llama white, and I was very disappointed. And Peter seemed hurt as he thought the understudy would give me that cosmic rush thing we were all into. I said, "Peter, this guy isn't even HIGH. I'm higher than he is!" So, I had my own strong reasons to stay where I was, lost in pagan land surrounded by adoring pagans who felt I was just too, too spiritual for words--which I probably was and wasn't faking it, just that it wasn't real and was going nowhere, and most certainly not saintlike and pure, either--but God divinely knocked me off my horse with lightning. Hopefully He will do the same with you. Love, Grace