For those of you who missed the 20/20 show on Monica ("The Two Faces of Monica Lewinsky"), here is a section of the transcript, which throws light on a face that seems to be straight out of "Fatal Attraction." It also makes Linda Tripp look like a Madame -- or a Iago (although Lewinsky could be lying):
JOHN QUINONES (VO)
........A darker side of Monica would later become apparent—angry, obsessive
and desperate. But at the beginning of her affair with the President, her
letters and e—mails were filled with the hopes and illusions of
adolescence. Even when her friend Catherine Davis advised her to end
the affair, Monica e—mailed her back, “I know it sounds so ridiculous,
but I can't get him out of my heart. I know it's stupid. I want to hug him
so bad right now I could cry.”
She was determined to keep the affair going, even after the President
broke it off in May 1997. In fact, Monica told prosecutors she had
originally been urged on in the affair by none other than Linda Tripp.
According to Monica, months earlier, Tripp told her she was the kind of
woman the President would like to have an affair with, that it would be
a neat thing to tell her grandkids.......
PRES BILL CLINTON There was sort of a disconnect sometimes
between what she was saying and the plain facts of our relationship. And
I don't know what caused that. But it may have been dissatisfaction with
the rest of her life.
JOHN QUINONES (VO) Whatever the cause, Monica appeared
desperate. Once she even waited in the rain in the White House parking
lot for a chance to give Clinton a gift. Prosecutors say that on July 3,
1997, she sent the meanest letter she had ever sent to Clinton to show
him how lucky he was, that some people in her position who had had an
affair with him would have played hardball with him. Monica says
Clinton took that letter as a threat to reveal their relationship. But she
pressed on. Though she was working at the Pentagon, but she wanted a
new job. And not just any job—one that paid a salary of $60,000, even
though she had been out of college just two years.
UNIDENTIFIED MAN Ladies and gentlemen, the president of the
United States.
JOHN QUINONES (VO) And Monica told prosecutors she would
sometimes show up at places where Clinton was expected to make an
appearance, hoping to catch his eye. After all, it had worked before,
back in August of 1996, when the President saw her and then called her
late that night for phone sex. But now, the President was avoiding her.
“And,” Monica e—mailed a friend—“I went ballistic.” It was at the
height of that anger, fueled by a sense of rejection, that a more complex
side of Monica Lewinsky had begun to emerge.
(on camera) It had happened before, here in Portland, Oregon, at the end
of a love affair with another older married man. An affair that went on
for five years.
ANDREW BLEILER Oh, to be able to undo those days, hmm?
JOHN QUINONES (VO) His name is Andy Bleiler, the 32—year—old
former Beverly Hills High School drama teacher who's never before
spoken in depth about his relationship with Monica Lewinsky. He wants
to make it clear that she was never one of his students, though he admits
he started dating her when she was still a teenager.
ANDREW BLEILER You could say she was fun. She didn't have a lot
of heavy things weighing her down in her life that I was aware of at that
time.
JOHN QUINONES (VO) But he says that Monica was quickly
becoming frighteningly obsessive. She followed him when he moved to
Portland and then started ingratiating herself into his
family—befriending his wife, Kathy, baby sitting their two kids.
ANDREW BLEILER So I would be feeling terribly guilty, terribly
ashamed. At the same time also not understanding why is she doing
this?
JOHN QUINONES (VO) He said that, like the President, he tried to
end the affair several times, but that Monica instead demanded more of
his time, angrily confronting him at work when she felt he wasn't paying
attention to her.
ANDREW BLEILER There's a real fear from where I was of seeing her
there and seeing her angry in a classroom full of kids. And Jeez, you
know, can we do this a little later maybe?
JOHN QUINONES (on camera) She didn't get it?
ANDREW BLEILER Well, she didn't like to hear that. And there was
always a sense of control on her part.
JOHN QUINONES (VO) In the summer of 1995, Monica announced
she had been awarded an internship to work at the White House, setting
her sights, he says, on Bill Clinton.
ANDREW BLEILER That's a pretty huge fish, you know. The
President of the United States. Man. It doesn't—I can't make it make
sense for me.
JOHN QUINONES (VO) But he says it wasn't long before Monica was
calling the Bleilers from the White House, often several times a day,
describing her sexual exploits with the man she called “the creep.”
ANDREW BLEILER I started feeling, “Why are you telling me this?”
You know, this is information that I don't need right now. It makes me
feel awkward.
JOHN QUINONES (VO) All the while, he says, Monica kept mailing
him souvenirs from the White House. Shockingly, even what appeared to
be copies of official and personal letters from the President. Letters that
Clinton had apparently written to government officials named Andy.
Bleiler says Monica scratched out their last names to make it seem like
the President had written them to Andy Bleiler.
(on camera) A letter to a Congressman?
ANDREW BLEILER Yeah. And someone else. I imagine he was a
military official.
JOHN QUINONES She took letters that were personal from the
President and sent them to you as a gag?
ANDREW BLEILER It seems that way, doesn't it? That's what it
looks like.
JOHN QUINONES But this is the President.
ANDREW BLEILER Well, I know. Yeah, little disturbing, isn't it?
JOHN QUINONES (VO) Now even he is left wondering, just who is
Monica Lewinsky? A young and impressionable women taken
advantage of by the President or a cunning manipulator who keeps
falling for the wrong man?
(on camera) She sent one of her friends an e—mail after her break—up
with the President, saying, “I have been really sad about Andy. I keep
having these dreams about him, Kate and the kid. It's really yucky.
What really hurts is that I cared so much about someone who just threw
me away so quickly.”
ANDREW BLEILER Wow. That's the first I've heard of that. She
probably has a lot of sad feelings about a lot of people that she's
affected by her actions. There's a lot of damage done.
SAM DONALDSON Monica Lewinsky told grand jurors that some of
Bleiler's past comments were, in her words, “pretty inaccurate.” We
asked for comment on our story, and Ms Lewinsky's spokesperson, Judy
Smith, released the following statement tonight. “When it is
appropriate, Miss Lewinsky, her family and friends will provide
accurate information about these and other reports.”
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