To: Gauguin who wrote (15501 ) 12/17/1998 4:02:00 PM From: Ilaine Read Replies (1) | Respond to of 71178
Gauguin, I get depression, too, but not that bad anymore. I tried Zoloft for a while, and it was like a little miracle, I woke up about 2:00 a.m. the night after I took the first dose, and said, "I feel different. I feel better." (I am a fast responder.) But, it made it impossible for me to come, and it also made me . . . reticent. Don't know how else to put it. I could handle the reticent, but not the other. So the Dr. tried Wellbutrin. I took that for a couple of years, then went to the diet doctor and got phen-fen. Phentermine is the phen in phen-fen. It's much like amphetamines, but I used to take amphetamines back when Dr.s would give them, and that was some mean stuff. Phentermine isn't mean. But it does make me hyper. And in combination with the Wellbutrin, I became wired. So I quit the Wellbutrin. And started experimenting with "smart drugs." I still take DLPA and GABA, those are just amino acids, buy them at the health food store, 4 500 mg. DLPA first thing in the morning, 4 500 mg GABA at bedtime. Other ones are not so clear cut, although I also take melatonin, not as a smart drug. 5HTP is problematic, I like it but I am afraid of it, due to the arthritis. Remember the L-tryptophan scare? I read that 5HTP can be contaminated with the same thing, causes damage to muscles. I learned somethings about depression, much like I learned about ADD. To a very large extent, it is just brain chemistry. And, to a very large extent, it is exacerbated by situations. I don't want to take medication for depression anymore. I can handle it. But, if I felt suicidal, I would definitely get medication, because the medication will make it go away. Knowing that it's just chemistry makes it not bother me as much. Once I got out of my bad situation with my former partner, I quit needing antidepressants. I guess your ADD is far worse than mine. I guess your depression is, too. Sorry. I think you are very clever, very lucid, very quick, you obviously have a fine mind. I don't know what the rest of your life is like, but you seem to function well in cyberspace.